A funny "Caitlin" story

I could write a book full of the funny things Caitlin says & does! This one happened last Friday night ...

We went out to dinner and when I was paying the bill the waitress gave Caitlin a lollipop. I took it off her and said she'd get it when we get home & Lauren was in bed as I didn't want a major screaming match in the back of the car!

We were in the car driving home and Caitlin said "Mum, what's your phone number?"

I made up a random phone number and she repeated it saying ...

Caitlin - "Mummy, you're going to get a call"
Me - "Who from?"
Caitlin - "God"
Me - "Why is God going to call me?"
Caitlin - "He is going to tell you to give me my lollipop back"

She then went on to say to herself quietly "God that was mums number, ring her and tell her. I know you are listening, like you always do!"

Now that in itself was funny but I know the logic behind it which to me, was hysterical.


Earlier in the day, Caitlin said that a friend in Nursery school was getting her to say bad words, like 'for fucks sake'. I went on to tell her that even if I wasn't there or even if the teacher couldn't hear, she shouldn't use words like this as God would always be listening!

Clever girls obviously took all this in and tried to use it against me, lol.

Maybe I Can

just turn this old, bad, shitty, life-style around.

I ate well all day to day with a little help from my friends. In work I was a little snowed under and was going to skip lunch (or opt for something bad) when some of the girls came to my rescue and put a plate of chicken & ham salad in front of me! I was delighted, chuffed to bits. It was yummy and I ate the lot.

Made me think how easy it was to prepare something fresh and healthy in work. I'll have to treat them back, that's a promise.

When I got home I made a lovely prawn salad for Ivan and I, so I'm keeping up with the healthy eating, for today anyway.

Have to admit my legs ache a little from the walking yesterday but I guess that is only to be expected. I haven't exercised in god knows how long. I deserve any pain I get in the initial stages. Planning on getting out tomorrow or Friday. Now I've put it in writing, don't let me back out - ask me, pester me to get out their and walk, please!



Also in work today, I got another wonderful surprise from my two buddies (my fellow Golden Girls), they have arranged to take me to dinner and a show in June. We are going to see Blood Brothers and not only that, we are in a box !!!!! La-de-da x

Got off my lazy ass ...

and went walking for 90 mins tonight! Go, me.

Have to admit, I really enjoyed it. I listened to Madonna on the iPod and kept a brisk pace through out. The route I took had lots of inclines, my face was purple after but hell, that's what it's all about. Me.

My goal is to do this route in reverse by the end of March. At the end there is a big, massive, steep hill. Well, it's steep for me. Even if there were half naked hunks waiting with oxygen bottles at the top, I'm in no state to attempt it yet!

Now I've been back home a while, my legs ache and my Akilies tendons hurt like hell (you know the thing above your heel, at the back of your ankle). I guess that's because they haven't been put to use in a while, maybe they've ceased up? They hurt to touch and hurt to move. However, I promise I will push myself through the pain barrier!

Drank a little water today, not nearly enough but more than yesterday.
Ate a little better today. Better than yesterday. Besides a few pancakes (Pancake Tuesday) (at home & in work) I ate healthy options and thought about what I was eating.

Maybe things are looking up? Maybe I'm taking myself a little more seriously!

Damned if you do & Damned if you don't

I hate the debate about 'Size 0' and the fact that the media portray it being the best thing since sliced bread.

Media moguls are more than responsible for fueling the debate by continually printing photos of these super-slim models/actresses.

I do believe that there is more than enough industry pressure on the models to look this way. The blame also has to lie with the bookers, designers, photographers etc. The girls are just giving them want they want.

Then you have the icons of the young and impressionable who go out of their way to look this thin. Mostly the actresses & Posh Spice! This lot I just don't understand.

So you can imagine my disgust when I opened 'OK' magazine today which had an article on Celeb Weight Battles! It did 'then' and 'now' photos of Jessica Simpson, Coleen McLoughlin, Kelly Osbourne, Martine McCutcheon & Rachel Stevens. The snippets beside the photos said things like 'the TV presenter managed to lose 2 1/2 stone over the last year, but it looks as if the old Kelly is slowly creeping back again!' or ' Self-confessed dieter Martine managed to go down from a size 14 to 10, but despite her good intentions, she has filled out."

WTF!

Take 3 things ...

I know that this is all it takes to get my ass in gear and start losing weight but why, oh why, can't I get my shit together and do them all together, at once, every day?

I need to get my lazy ass in gear and exercise
I need to eat healthy
I need to drink more water

I start the week with good intentions but by Wednesday they've all up'd and left me. I can only manage one of the above at any given time. How crap is that?

I'm a grown woman, with a full time job and two kids under 5, ffs!

I'm meant to be able to multi-task. That's that's a skill we're born with. I mean, we can all juggle x-amount of tasks per day but throw in some exercise & healthy eating and I'm as much use as a chocolate tea pot.

That is why things have got to change. I will be honest with myself from here on in, I will make more of an effort. At the end of the day, I'm doing it all for me. No-one else, just me.

I need to get healthy, I need to be able to run about with the kids without keeling over. I need to be able to walk into a shop and buy clothes off the peg. I need to be able to feel comfortable with myself when I look in the mirror and not despise the image looking back at present. I need to feel happy & confident in the company of others. I need to be able to wear a swimsuit and not want a wave to wash me out to sea. I need to be able to see my face & neck again and not the person with all the folds of skin and multiple chins I see at present. I need to learn how to love 'me' again.



So today, the truth and nothing but the truth from here on in ::

I went walking today. Only 30 mins of risk walking, pushing a buggy but it was exercise none the less. I eat like a pig all day and I don't think a drop of water passed my lips.

Kelis - Lil Star

I cannot get this song out of my head at the minute. I love the tune but the words are so special ...

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If it seems like I'm shining brightly
It's probably a reflection of something you already are
I forget about myself sometime
When there's so many other around
When deep inside you feels darkest
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner or later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If you try to reach out an touch me
you'll see I'm not really that far
I may not be the brightest nor am I the last one you’ll see
But as long as you notice, that’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner or later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
I’ve been running and jumping, but barely
Getting, getting over the bar
I plan on being much more than I, am but that's in do time
But until then I'm guilty, and being humans my crime
Being human that is my crime
Being human that is my crime

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner of later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me